May iniisip ka?
Oo.
Ano?
Ayaw kong sabihin. Baka magkatotoo.
Dahil makulit ka
Kilala kita. Oo, ikaw 'yun: Nagkasalubong na tayo minsan, sa LRT, sa Gotohan, sa kanto ng Aurora at Katipunan. Nagkatinginan tayo. Hindi mo ako kinausap, pero alam ko, nakilala mo rin ako. Kaya ka narito, di ba? Para sabihing, Oo, oo, ikaw nga 'yun. Naaalala kita.
na, mula noong 24 Enero, 2006, ang nakitambay dito
Sunday, May 08, 2005
Pampagana. 'Yung naiwan ko sa kuwarto kahapon.
Visiting the Master Stephen Dunn
Don't follow me, I'm lost, the master said to the follower who had a cocked pen and a yellow pad.
But I live for art, the follower said. I need to know some of its secrets, if not its rules.
I'm lost, said the master, I ask only for your forbearance and a little help with the rent.
The follower realized he'd caught the master at a bad time. I'll come back next week, he said.
He knew the master had told others that over a lifetime the word autumn shouldn't be used more than five or six times, and that only a fool confuses activity with energy.
The follower came back the next week. The master said, go away. It all begins elsewhere, apart from me. Both sunsine and shadow, these days, oppress me. A good woman is hard to keep.
The follower thought he understood. You mean, he said, privation is the key?
Oh, return to zero, the master said. Use what's lying around the house. Make it simple and sad.
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Nagdatingan na'ng mga co-fellows ko, kanina lang. Mukhang may mga hindi ako makakasundo. Mukha ring kahit papa'no e may makakasundo ako. Sana hindi ko masyadong ma-miss 'yung alone time. Sibat na 'ko, may karamdaman yata 'tong computer na inupuan ko sa Scooby's.
ina: pag-uwi ko, sige, inom tayo. mahaba-habang inuman siguro 'yun.
carl: diyan ko na lang ikukuwento, sa harap ng mga bote ng erbi. di naman sa di ko makasundo, masama lang ang timpla namin sa isa't isa. o ng timpla ko sa kanya. teka, baka ako ang mahirap pakisamahan, di kaya?
Bayaw, inom ba? hindi ako tatanggi diyan. sino ba ang hindi mo manasundo? uupakan na natin?